Inspire.

Inspiration comes when one is not looking for it.

When one sits on an edge of a paddy field, a jade-coloured rug full of life force. Wind breezes by every now and then, gently caressing these scrawny but beautiful creatures, reminding one of timorous waves waltzing across the ocean.

When one drives by an empty street in the middle of the night, accompanied by a favorite music sung by the radio, at a speed fast enough to keep drowsiness at bay, but slow enough for the reflexes to manoeuvre should a stray motorbike cut across.

When one stands barefoot in a shallow sea, waves warmly massaging one's limbs, with one's eyes savouring the scene where mountains meet oceans, which is once said as having belonged to the heavens.

In these moments, an Epiphany.

Or.

Nonetheless, it can be broken down to two essentials: Freedom of and/or from judgement, and conversion of energy.

Chiefly, however, I have to introduce my recently acquired (or realized) pattern of thought: Creationism. I'll have it explained in greater details in my 《world views》post later, but to simply put it, my inner world revolves around a dogma summarized by a question: what sort of outer world are my thoughts, words, and actions creating?

I discovered that I was being judgmental. Albeit I count myself as part of people who judges less, I discover I judge two people very harshly: The girl(s) I attach romantic interests and affairs to, and myself.

The former is perhaps a form of self defense mechanism, an iron wall, a coffee strainer. The latter, however, meant I wasn't able to accept myself the way I am.

A few hours ago, I was queuing with my mom to buy some medicine, and she has almost finished the transaction when I discovered a chewing gum I wanted to buy. I took it, held it out in front of the cashier, but the impatient lady behind me was handing her tiny cream and telling the cashier that it was the only thing she was buying (mbak, ini aja barangnya. ini aja barangnya.) I immediately replaced the gum and exited the store with my mom.

Perhaps I was afraid of offending the rushing lady or I was afraid to be seen as jumping the queue. Either way, as I walked along the densely populated streets of Kuta, I immediately blamed myself for being so timid. There and then I caught myself judging, and told myself that it is alright. One instance does not determine another. There is impermanence, randomness, and unpredictability.

I remember judging myself as being sensitive. It is nothing more than allowing other people's words to hurt you. Now, no more. For one, neither your own nor other people's adjectives shall suffice in describing you as a whole person. One instance doesn't determine the rest. Otherwise, you can always take it as a compliment;)

Don't judge and bar yourself from being judged. Start from thyself!


The other lesson learnt is that if people go into great lengths sending bad, negative, or dark energies to you, either through their minds, speeches, or actions, one of the best elixirs would be by saying thank you. When said with intent and meaning, gratitude does not only neutralize these harmful wavelengths, they transform these into beneficial, positive energies.

Positive thinking is but a powerful cliche.

Believe that you have the capacity to tame even the roughest seas, to protect yourself from the most malicious black magic, and to create your grandest dreams.

For a faith as small as a seed, where correctly held and applied, can move mountains.


-Truly Indonesia's Finest.