Saturday, 17 August 2013

Of Prayers.

I've been taught how to pray.

Not

"Dear God, I am so afraid. I have many problems and troubles looming ahead of me.. Please help me.."

Rather,

"Hello problems and troubles, I am not afraid, because I have my God."

Amen.

Tuesday, 6 August 2013

The Canvass

I have never thought myself as an 'artistic' person. To me, art equates to beauty, splendor, and intellectual sophistication; All of these which had little room in my crass and pragmatic way of living. However, I recently discovered that art can be seen as an expression of self, a process of creation, and with that I became her ally.

This post is a sharing from my encounter with a certain someone who delves in the world of 'art', which acts as a reconciliation of the basics he taught me. As of today, he is the only Indonesian art collector who reads proper 'Art Theory', or so he said. Regardless of the truth of the previous statement, what he shared you might find useful should you ever find yourself trapped in intellectual cocktail parties. Enjoy.

So he began from the latest two eras of art: The era of modern art (20th century) and the era of contemporary art (21st century, the present).

I fathom that novices in the art world, very much like myself, are stuck with the modern era definition of 'art'. Originality was emphasized, art served to please the eyes, and form triumphed over content. Modernists strived to be an avant garde in their works which meant looking backwards was frowned upon. As such, incorporating culture and tradition into their creation was a taboo. This led to the abandonment of old identities and the embrace of universalism. In the spirit of modernism, the works of a French painter should not be culturally distinct from the works of a Japanese, they only need to be different, to be original, without a single trace of the past. It was not unlike a horse wearing blinkers, tunneling their vision to the roads straight upfront.

Therefore the birth of very distinct, very original, but 'formful' styles of art in this era, such as Picasso's Cubism and Van Gogh's Expressionism. The latter artist's works are supposedly able to transfer and wholly convey their painter's feelings to their viewer, as in the ecstasy of Sunflower painting and the stressfulness of the Scream painting. In other words, seeing the Sunflower somehow should make us feel bubbly, while seeing the Scream would somehow make us feel Van Gogh's stress.

Moreover, there are several additional rules that make an art acknowledged as a modern art. Firstly, there is formalism, which dictates that a good modern art must have a significant form, like proper brush strokes or befitting colour combinations. The bad ones don't follow these 'forms'. Then there is medium specificity, where a two-dimensional modern art must be a painting on a canvass while a three-dimensional modern art must be a sculpture. Another sentence to emphasis on the word 'must'. Finally, a modern art needs to be something distant from everyday experience, that is to say, something as quotidian as a Campbell tomato soup can was never accepted as an artwork in the modern era of art.

Thenceforth, a modern artwork has a duty to depict beauty with whatever means the artist had: lines, colour, texture, space, composition, et cetera; to the extent that visuals are what is important, neither the message of the artist that he wished to convey nor the context of the production of the artwork. Once again, modern art is always form over content.

Things did get rather interesting in the 1960s, a transitionary era of art, where brilliant artisans such as Robert Rauschenberg tested the waters of the modern art. He created something that is in between a sculpture and a painting, something that can be described as a three-dimensional canvass. These are definitely aesthetically pleasing, but these do not conform to modern art's rigid rule of medium specificity. People began to rethink their definitions of art, an artistic renaissance was set in motion, and contemporary art was born.

The art critique Arthur C. Datho wrote in his famous essay, 'The End of Art', that in contemporary art, an artwork and a non artwork are visually indistinguishable. Take Andy Warhol's Brillo Box exhibition which depicted consumerism, for instance. Datho found that the Brillo boxes in Warhol's exhibitions are exact copies of their cousins found in the next door supermarket. So as our minds converge with Arthur Datho's back then, a crucial question pops up in our heads: What then, is the thing that distinguishes an artwork from an ordinary, mundane, quotidian object?

It is not the fact that the artwork is produced by the artists themselves. It is neither the fact that the artwork is exhibited in art galleries or museums. Andy Warhol went as far as to introduce his artworks as 'products' produced by his 'workers' in his 'factory', intently avoiding the word 'studio' or 'gallery', as he tried to underscore what makes a contemporary artwork an artwork.

The answer lies in, as some of you should have inferred by now, the content that the art piece carries, or the context under which it was constructed. In the contemporary era, art is no longer a slave to the eyes of the seekers of beauty. Thus, form is mostly, if not all, obsolete in contemporary art. Less stress is placed on originality and innovation as well. It is, therefore, content over form. The more thought provoking, the more artistic.

Of course, some themes are more popular than the rest. In the era of extreme mobility, identity and culture becomes something very elusive. Ideas, concepts, and beliefs get transferred from one to another and mixed without mercy, forming a vague concoction of lifestyle that we claim as our own. Thus, a lot of contemporary masterpieces seek to embody our struggles in the formation of our identity, retaining some and letting go of some, while evening out the odd. Take a look in the Jacuzzi in Japan's Naoshima Island, which is an art labeled by its creator as a 'cultural melting bath'. Visitors from different corners of the earth meet as they bath, and as they interact, they share whatever cultures they carry with them. Thus a brilliant form of art, which is not passively and voyeuristically enjoyed, but experienced. The visitor becomes part of the artist's masterpiece.

Thus, in these contemporary times, there are no boundaries left. Everything can be an art. Even that chained-on-the-wall and starved-to-death dog or that exhibition of painted red squares.

You're welcome.

Truly Indonesia's Finest.

Friday, 2 August 2013

Closure

(by the way, in case you have never realized, this post is a continuation of my Day 38's post - Last Night Out).

This post is dedicated to my little miss sunshine, to the heroine of my Singapore drama, to the 'half' in the one and a half relationships I've ever had.

I don't know if you will ever read this post, but yes, if you ever do, kindly be assured that it's you.

and I am sorry and thankful for everything.

We were talking about having a proper closure and all in Starbucks this morning, and although we've settled on a conclusion, I felt that my talk was cheap, so I'll write my own version of our closure. Sorry for always lurking in the penumbra. I can't imagine how much sadness I caused you, and up until the end of this morning, I have been harboring conflicted feelings.

As a person, my willpower was not of a steel. Seven months ago when I left, I hardened my heart and told myself to move on, for the best of us. For a while I thought I did; but the day we met again, our smiles turned to laughter, which turned to touches. Before long, I found my way back into your warm loving arms, and I had a battle with myself. Why do I have to leave?

However, we have to admit that ultimately both of us were not ready to be in contact with the waters, and thus, for the greater good of us, we have to move on. So you did, with greater and greater acceptance, and me too. But I know too well that there is a part of myself, and a part of yours, that didn't wish for this... It's fine, time will dissolve these feelings; meanwhile allow me to pray for your health, studies, and that your deserved 白马王子 will come timely. I am so glad that you have really grown, and thank you for the acceptance. Trust me, whatever motives you someday might think I had, I care for you, and that is it. Thenceforth comes the closure, the complete circle, and thank you for everything. I hope you enjoyed our time together as much as I did. And hopefully, it will be something we can look back and cherish as best friends in the future.

You are the first to call me panda. You transformed my ':p' to ':b'. You made Interact sessions much more colorful. You taught me empathy, you taught me what it means to work hard and never give up, you taught me to care. Thank you. You allowed me to enjoy witnessing a girl maturing, and I am definitely proud of you. You are a best friend whom I can relax and be really at ease. You make me laugh. You said that 'It is better to be bullied than to be ignored', and thus I bullied you. HAHAHA

Thank you so much for accompanying me during the whimsical bus rides, for sharing hugs during rainy days, for the days when we strolled Botanical Gardens with a cup of Island Creamery's ice cream on our hands. In you, I see an amazing friend, a sister, a role model, a teacher, and someone I admired. I will miss dearly your distinct fragrance, your barrage of infinite questions, and your forgetful auntie demeanor. HAHAHA

So, all the best for your prelims, A Levels, and everything else! I pray that your 白马王子 will come and snatch your heart away real soon, and for your health and amazing family as well. Help me thank your parents as well, they're awesome ;)

See you again someday! We will. Kindly take care until then:)

Yours Truly,

(Saying goodbye) to the Air Conditioned Nation

Once upon a time, there was a boy who strived to be popular among girls by studying harder, and he got a scholarship instead. (kindly refer to the post, Uno Amor, for more details)

It was a premium ticket to the Merlion-donning island nation, Singapore, for four years of free studying and boarding.

I still faintly recall the words written in the cover page of a scholar's handbook given to us during secondary 3, which read: "I am not telling you that it is going to be easy, but I am telling you that it is going to be worth it."

As I went for a seven day trip to Singapore to face her one more time before I study even further overseas, indeed, the words deeply buried in my thoughts years ago rang truer than ever. I can still vividly recall the day my mother informed me of my younger brother's success in getting the same award, the first thing that popped up into my mind was: "Yay, someone to accompany me in this hellhole."

Perhaps it was the difficult curriculum, the rather tense and hostile atmosphere, or even the fierce competition that made the air in Singapore rather heavy. We were scholars, and we had to at least pretend to act proper, guarding our image and behaving in the most appropriate manners as whenever any miniscule wrongdoings are judged, the word 'scholar' would be the first used to mince us. Interestingly, I also learned how to juggle when to mix with the locals thereby getting my identity diffused and when to take a step back to preserve what is left.

Nonetheless, despite the pressurizing studies, less-than-friendly gestures, and crippling homesickness (especially if you are feeling lonely), I have made irreplaceable friends and memories along the way. I am also grateful for the fact that I have guardian angels protecting me throughout, taking forms of a concerned classmate, a warm teacher, a caring canteen stall auntie, or even a friendly bus driver. They made living in Singapore so much easier, and leaving Singapore so much harder.

Thus I loaded my trip with meetings with friends, which involved a sleep-over and a HTHT until 3am in one of my best friend's dorm room at PGP ;) thanks for having me there bro. My trip's highlight can be summarized by three words: Friends, Food, and Travel. Thus, whenever I am not talking to a friend over a scrumptious dish or a cup of coffee, I would either be lying on my bed sleeping, or taking the SBS or SMRT travelling.

I always had this affection to SBS buses. They offer fantastic sceneries (especially the double-decker ones) together with the comfortableness of air-conditioning. Moreover, the fare comes quite cheap. Lastly, when coupled with MRTs, travelling from any point 'A' to another point 'B' in Singapore will be very likely to take less than an hour, which is an amazing feat unparalleled by other metropolitan cities in the world. This is definitely one side of Singapore that I'll miss.

I would also miss the morning runs in Mc Ritchie Reservoir, taking random SBS double decker buses with no definite destination in mind, the evening runs around Raffles Institution, strolling in Botanical Gardens, roaming around at Pulau Ubin, and cycling at East Coast Park. To be very honest, I spent very little of my time in these places; ironically the impact they imparted on me was huge.

However, Singapore changes very rapidly, as with other developed metropolitan cities. Parting is such a sweet sorrow, and I spent my seven days there in a mixture of melancholy and gratefulness. I fear, what if there will come a day when I go back to Singapore only to find that I can no longer recognize her?

So I calmed down and told myself: "It's fine. Just as what (I) am doing now, recollecting the old times while making new memories synchronously. That way, saying goodbye will be less painful and more joyful, for in the future, when we meet again, the farewell back then becomes a part of the hello."

I shall.

Thank you Singapore. It has been a worthwhile four year journey with you. I'll be back.

-Truly Indonesia's Finest