Of (the Geist's) Development

How do you know if you have actually improved or progressed over time?

I began asking these questions as I looked back to my old posts - History kinda repeated itself (Thus I am not of the Hegelian history) as in I some similar patterns repeating over and over. For instance, the drugging my American dorm-mates with Indomie Goreng, not quite a new concept.

I attended a talk by Stanley Morgan just now; which allowed me to kind of peer beyond my 'today' door. I am starting to see a pattern; why doesn't the hard work end? or it will never end? Shall I be thankful nonetheless that I get to work hard? Is life about working hard, or is there more to it? Am I of historical significance? Am I making progress as I destroy myself, as I 'hit the reset button' and 'cross the intersection' or am I taking something with me?

I am quite sure that the voice inside my head is becoming clearer each day, though. I am getting more adept at assigning the sources of these voices too, and to which I should pay heed. My reality creating mechanism is improving a lot as well; and the grasp of certain philosophy and principles allow me to wield them with ease. But nonetheless, I still need to remind myself very often.

Plus one, I am seeing the same patterns with vixens again. But this time, I am able to sort of transcend and attempt to stop myself, before I see history repeating itself again. Guess what, I went to Cambridge, MA, and met her again. It is really true, perhaps, that no man is truly free before he is free from the nature. But being free from the nature is meaningless if there is no reconciliation with her afterwards.

So I guess, in the midst of my jumbled-up thoughts, I realize something invaluable as I browse through this pile of writings. I am writing to no one, or to everyone, but more importantly, I am writing for my future self.

Hi future self, if you see this post, kindly remind yourself to check on the "spiritual" progress that you have made, based on the milestones your past selves have planted. Nonetheless, acceptance is key, and all will be well in the end.

Love you,
-Truly Indonesia's Finest.

ps hopefully my next posts are more narrative than abstract. which may not amount much to history but will be way more entertaining. ;)