Every being has a soul; but only a few people are blessed with the awareness of the Universe.
I have always been in the borderline, there are days in which the voices within me sound clearer than ever. The whole world, the whole universe, is just a playground for our souls to grow and learn. Once these souls have matured enough, they will go back (or perhaps, for the benefit of linearity, progress) to where they originate from.
All the scenarios and the things we go through in life has already happened, but are not absolute because every parallel moment is a co-creation between our physical self, earthly ego, and the captain of the chariot, our soul. The way all events unfold, the connection between my life and other's lives, or even all my past and future selves, ultimately point to the direction of a whole one being. That is why masters call the events of our lives "dramas" or "soap operas". We are not physical beings experiencing a spiritual phenomena; we are spiritual beings experiencing a physical life. Thus, whatever ambitions or goals we have are merely "stories" or even a "movie" to the driver of the chariot.
I profess I have trouble keeping patient at times. I finally am getting closer to the answer of "why me, why now at this point?" and "what is the purpose of my life?", and until I develop a better connection with my master which shall endow me a greater wisdom of understanding, I resolve to carry out my duties joyfully, and to try my best to enjoy every single moment possible, to the greatest.
Enjoy? You must be crazy. How does one enjoy the cold weather, the possibility of being physically hurt or sick, the stress and burden of your job, the feeling of rejection or loneliness from your fellow human beings, or the feeling of uncertainty and lostness, even despair toward the future?
The answer lies on the fact that the physical experience comes with such limitations for a number of good reasons. It remains a fact that if you lift and move around heavy things your muscle will feel the strain, but imagine if you are a slave in Egypt doing it, or if you are a husband trying to move your family's belongings into a new house. Yes, both actions create some form of physical strain, such is the nature of life. However, wouldn't the two people have very different emotions and states of minds?
I don't know how far I am in the school of life, in the progression or advancement of souls. I heard that it's not going to be far too long from this point onward, but I figured that since I am probably going to live slightly longer, and I am meant to fulfill certain tasks, why not I try my best to enjoy all the process? I understand too that there are karmic ties, perhaps I have been undoing most of them, and hopefully I am not building too much of those too. But, whoever people you have sent, are sending, or will send my way, I am very grateful for them. And I will treat them with the respect they deserve, and I will help them as they will help me, for I believe that in each person I come across there is something I can learn from them.
I shall talk more about myself specifically right now, I will expose most of my inner sanctuary because I need to see this in writing in order to have a clearer dialogue with my Higher Self. Readers, you are seeing me threadbare. Don't mind me. I understand that I have been through countless lives and incarnations, but I am poised towards and being reminded of my existence as an European Aristocrat around the 15th century. It never occurred to me to ask why specifically that life was made clear to me, until I realized that the me in this life is probably the most similar to the me in that life.
I heard the aristocrat is such a great person. He is a hero in his own right, and allow me to christen him Rufus. Rufus loves red wine. He is a man of many charms, always surrounded by girls. He is a capable and confident man. He travels for his work, and at the young age of 19 he has been sent by the Luxembourg kingdom to settle a national affair. I heard that he is smart, ambitious, and driven. He dates a different woman for each different city he lived in. Although, he has a soft spot that I still carry on today: Rufus stays restless until he finishes whatever tasks he needs to finish.
Rufus is me, but I am a different person, a different entity from Rufus. I have my own story to fulfill, my own journey to take. I heard that the physical being of me is nowhere near a hundredth of Rufus', but there is definitely a reason why we are so similar, and perhaps our paths might overlap. After all, I am Rufus, Rufus is me.
For some reason, Rufus tells me that life as a me is more interesting, and he wishes that I remember to loosen up too. Be grateful for life. Be glad that you are on this journey. Be aware, but don't think too much because you will wear out. Everything will unfold as it is, and the things to be learned will be learned. The soul of the universe does not function with an ego: Although they shape our destiny, they actually are the epitome of the free will and respect for the different paths and lives that we can take. And finally, everything is going to be alright. In fact, it always is, no matter what.
Yours,
Rufus.
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