Freesias before Roses (cont'd)

And so I did catch a dinner with her and gave her a cut Freesia. After telling me how beautiful it is, she gave it a whiff, and was marveled by how beautiful it smelled. And I did tell her how this flower was more known for its fragrance than its appearance, and I also asked her to find out the meaning of the flower. I... also told her that I never properly celebrated valentine's day, and it was on my checkbox to give a girl a flower on valentine's. And so I did!

We had Peruvian for dinner - she had a healthy dose of pisco sour and I had a huge helping of Peruvian red. It was really fun catching up with her, I listened about her new group she recently switched to at work, about her new apartment, about decluttering (which is high up there on my to-do list!) about her ex (I know, right?), and about her travels. I shared my stories about Indonesia and my case work and how I'm so fascinated/frustrated by analyst reports, and her take on it confirmed my nagging suspicions. hahaha. Frankly, she's a prime example of why online dating works, (or at least gives you a great friend), and she's the first, (and maybe the last?) of my online encounters. We'll see - I'm not terribly active at that space yet.

But anyways, I guess the question right now is, if there will ever be roses after the fresh cut of freesia. And frankly, I don't know! She's one of the sweetest, kind, and easygoing ladies I know in New York and I get really positive vibes hanging around her. It's just that... I'm not terribly physically attracted to her? (sure, even after a glass of red) I'm about 95% sure that my confidence is not misplaced - I'm very certain that if I ask her out romantically she'd be more than willing to, at the very least, to try it out. After all, the context that we're meeting each other/through is very clear, unlike to 99% of my other interactions with women (and that is rounding down heavily hahaha). But... just because I can, it doesn't mean I should. But she appreciates the smell of freesias. Hmm.

Well - I will say this much - in the past, and right now, (and in the future, too, I'm very certain), I meet ladies who are as kind and generous as she is, but who I'm happily attracted to. And god forbid, they do, occasionally, like me back too. Hahaha. I guess I'll relax for now and wait until that person comes along. And may she be as generous and kind and open-minded as this lady. And may this lady receive happiness, find love, and get over her ex hahaha because one does not drive forward while looking at the rear-view mirror all the time :)