Tuesday, 2 June 2015

Transit

I usually try not to update my blog too often, but since I have some time, and am feeling great, so yeah why not?

Thank you for your understanding, readers :)

I am in Narita now, waiting for my next flight to New York. Narita is a fantastic airport to be stuck in, it has Japanese food, goods, and people. The free wifi's great, and I'm enjoying a fantastic resting space which is stylistically built and is very comfy! Although objectively Singapore's Changi Airport remains the best transit place I've experienced, I am very pleased with what I get here. As a bonus, I was enjoying my bowl of tonkatsu in a restaurant here when I heard a bunch of Japanese people practicing their Bahasa Indonesia. After the meal, I stopped by them, praised their Bahasa in Japanese, and finished off with terimakasih and sayonara. They were shocked; but it's one of the many little moments which make learning foreign languages worth it ;)

The comfy sofa-bed in Narita
Ahh. It is lovely to be back in Japan, even if just for a while. It brings me back to the country which treated me very well. It's difficult to not remember strolling down the dimly lit streets of Kyoto or watching the cherry blossoms flutter in Osaka Castle whenever I hear Japanese being spoken. I am truly grateful, for whatever the costs might have been, that I chose and was given the opportunity to spend some time in Japan during the past semester.

Let me conclude this with another story, a reminisce of my Japanese memory. Toward the end of the program, I began to hang out more with the 3rd Year Japanese kids, and they love going to Nipponbashi with passion. Nipponbashi is almost an hour's worth of travelling from my home in Shojaku, and in the region they do three main things: Doujinshi, Games, and Arcade. To be very honest, I wasn't much of a doujinshi/anime or game console buff, but I really enjoyed the Arcade visits to Taito.

On our second last weekend, I decided to follow Bry-Chan to split up with the group from Namco and to go to Taito. Probably good thing I did so, because I discovered this amazing drum game in the latter arcade. I really enjoyed the game because before I knew it I was smiling and laughing everytime I managed to beat a song. However, there was a song that I was always very close to beating, but I never managed to. I promised myself that I would beat the song before I left Japan for good. Therefore, in the very last day (it was a Friday after our final exams, and everyone had to check out of the dorms on Saturday), when everyone was shopping, packing, or saying goodbyes, I left for Taito by myself to finally beat the song, and only after then I joined the group's farewell party. I'm so glad that I did so, because now I can say I left Japan without any regrets!

Well, I hope you all are having fun! Cheers!

flyt


Hi All, thank you! :)

I'm sitting at Jakarta International Airport's Starbucks, having checked in my gigantic luggage. In a few I shall hop on my plane bound for Narita (a good chance to finish my Yen and recharge some of my nihongo) and then eventually New York. It was a good 18 days I spent here. I might say that my return flight from Osaka felt just like yesterday, but I learned a good deal about a lot of different things that my black notebook is brimming with barely intelligible scruffings hahahaha. 

Anyways, I shall have a meal with an old friend in New York before I reach Amherst around midnight. I'm excited because I've been blessed with a lot of things: Amazing friends who are staying around in the summer, *fingers crossed* wonderful boss and meaningful work, and a nice single room in Hitchcock (if I'm correct, it's even better than my single room next year lol). So, thank you, I have been blessed.

To paraphrase a friend, a student's life in school is like driving straight. The obligations and the potentials are clear as day. Therefore, to even it out, the bends and the u-turns happen during holidays for the students. I have had winding roads during the past few weeks; One fine Saturday I was just out from morning till midnight driving solo, cafe-ing, and meeting the news and reconnecting the olds. Another I was up till 3am in the top stories of a Singaporean construct, wine-ing with my cousin who I always respect. And this, below. If there are any international readers, this is an appeal for you to come visit Indonesia someday. Yes, I didn't upload the prettiest pic, but since I'm travelling soon the bridge symbolism becomes more relevant :P

Anyways, I'm glad because I finally tried kayaking on a solo boat and re-lived my old Sec 3 OBS at Pulau Ubin days. And yes, sorry, this is more for myself, but the 100 Yen gloves I bought for a "dishwasher" game in the Japanese arcade actually became handy on that day ;)

For all readers who are travelling, or who are about to, safe travels! May your paths be safe and be a cheerful one!
Lombok, Indonesia


PS: Oh and Happy Vesak Day everyone, may we eventually reach the perfect enlightenment so that we can save the universe! And to my best friend, Agan, cheers to an amazing study abroad semester in Qinghua, Beijing! I'm so proud of you for making that choice, and I'm so happy for you because you're gonna be in one of my most favorite city in the world! It's a pity that I might not be able to catch you there, but see you again somewhere mate!

Tuesday, 26 May 2015

Sharing

They say to share is to care, and according to the answers to the Emperor's three questions, the most important thing to do is to care. So I will probably share, probably.

How are you?

I am fine, as always. I almost can't believe that it has only been ten days after I left Japan; time has been really fast and really slow, really merciful and really cruel, at the same time.

And I have been blessed with a lot of stories and people who shared them to me. They happen fluidly too; I didn't put much effort or resistance in obtaining them. My task is merely of a student's: The black notebook is brimming with scribbles since its inception in Tahara. I guess I'm a study addict, a nerd, or a true scholar, for I'm learning way more, even when school's out. One time I was sipping wine in my cousin's condominium until three in the morning, and he taught me what it meant to conquer a mountain and what it meant to be rich, among other things. Another I was sweetly sitting and smiling at a group of sweet Indonesians who were puffing smokes, and they shared about making life more beautiful. Thank you...

I am a story teller, but my disposition is always such that I prefer to listen first. I can assume a fountain, which fills and overflows, but a good fountain keeps quiet in front of a waterfall. After receiving a lot of water and pumping, I'm starting to overflow too, so let me pour some to you readers!

(This story is a throwback from Japan)

Do travel, because traveling is a prayer to stop thinking about life and to start living it.

After an amazing day exploring Minoh 箕面市and its beautiful waterfalls, Dan and I decided to try our luck in Wakayama 和歌山 the next day. This time, not only Htet-Htet, but Wesley and Montana also decided to tag along. Wakayama is located in the south of Osaka, we took the slowest train to get the cheapest fare. It took us nearly 1800Y (15USD) and 3 hours in total to reach Wakayama.

Let me start by confessing that I am often guilty of being an impromptu sort of person, and I didn't plan the Wakayama trip at all. I just assumed that it would roll along well like the Minoh trip; we'd reach the place and then slowly figure out the ample things to do in Wakayama. Thus, being a democratic citizen, we settled for a chain curry restaurant that can be found in Umeda 梅田 (downtown Osaka) and discussed our plans for the day. (For readers from Jakarta, Singapore and Beijing, the chain restaurant was CoCo Curry..)

We finally settled to go to a famous temple with a forest walk, which was said to calm one's nerves and enhance one's happiness, but none of my friends knew how to get there. Thus I google-mapped the name of the temple, and found the supposed destination around an hour away by train. Thus begins the epic misadventure in Wakayama.

Firstly, I led my friends to a perfume section of a department store "KINTETSU", asking the confused store clerks if they knew where the train platforms were. We left the clerks confused and left to the station to take themed-trains for which our train passes did not work. Our toy-themed train was very adorable, laden with kids and young parents, but it took us straight to very far in the sticks. By the time we reached the recommended stop, we were in the middle of nowhere. There were vast paddy fields and narrow, single lane car roads around us, up north were the mountains, and there were few small residences interspersed.

I led my friends through harrowing roads and very old Japanese houses. We walked through and against the traffic, complete with curious onlookers who probably never saw white people in their lives. (Yes, I'm Asian, but three of my friends weren't). We saw gardens, giant pumpkins and flowers, traditional co-ops, until we finally reached a wall and a step of stairs by its sides.

"Friends, I think this is it. The Maps are telling me that we've arrived to our destination." I told my friends. I was fervently hoping that whatever shrine in the sticks we were visiting would be worth the journey, but..

At the start of the steps there is a traditional gate-like structure that signifies an entrance to a Japanese shrine. That's where I learned that you are not supposed to enter from the center of it unless you are a god (or a God, probably). We meekly climbed the stairs until we saw the temple, and we were appalled at what we saw.

Nope, it wasn't therapeutic. We saw a square-ish ground, with a really small, unkempt shrine full of cobwebs to our left, and a charcoal-burnt, half-standing structure on our right. There was a barricade preventing entry to the blazed grounds. To borrow the words of a friend, the place looked "hobo-ish". That was it. Some of my friends decided to toss some Yen into the donation box and pray, one of them missed the throw. (Dan, I hope you're not cursed.. hahaha) I could sense several murder intents, but boy I'm lucky I am still alive hahaha. My friends probably need my GPS to lead the way back home!

We traveled back to Wakayama station through the tedious roads, and Htet-Htet and Montana decided to catch the train back to Osaka. It was probably a wise choice, because I decided to catch a bus to Marina City with Dan and Wes, and it was a "marine" themed park with an odd mix of Mediterranean. Yes, we got a beautiful view of the ocean, but we were watching it in a midst of drizzle and we didn't last long. I also bought and lost an omiyage (I think it was a yuzu mochi) but thankfully someone stopped me before I left the bus without my phone. To top off the perfect adventure, the boys decided to get some horse sashimi in Aikawa 相川. We walked late at night after reaching Suita吹田for a good 15 minutes in the middle of the rain without an umbrella, and only when we sat down in the izakaya and ordered we realize that they were out of horse that night.

What is the moral of the story? Enjoy and bless every moment.. Hehe. I am really glad that the trip happened. We bonded together as friends and shared this unforgettable memory of the misadventure, and I fully agree with Wes who told me that he much preferred improvised trips like this, exploring the middle of nowhere without any plans, because they are much more remarkable and fun. Ten years down the road, when we meet again, we'll probably remember the cursed shrine in Wakayama.. So glad to live the 危ない生活。Hahaha. (or blessed?)

Thus, please feel free to travel, roam, and explore. Even feel freer to plan less. If you are even luckier you will be blessed with amazing and understanding travel buddies. It is the characteristic of your spirit to roam about freely, and to enjoy life. Cheers!

Wednesday, 20 May 2015

中国の姫様

僕は、日本で勉強していた時、色々な女性に会った。彼女たちの中で、めっちゃ親切で、完熟な中国から女の人にいた。僕と彼女はあまりしゃべらなかったとしても、僕は彼女と一緒に話す時がめっちゃ大好きだった。

ある日、僕と彼女一緒に相川の寿司やで晩御飯を食べていた。僕は彼女に聞いた:どうして全部女の人のわかることが難しいと思う?

返事は:
“其实,虽然我是个女性,我并不敢说我了解自己。对我来说,了解自己还不如控制自己好。我觉得一个女性不必了解自己,但她先要学好怎么控制自己。”と言っていた。

実はその言葉聞いた時、僕はちょっとびっくりした。だから、僕はその彼女に聞いた:“那么你觉得为什们需要控制自己呢? 而且, 你觉得你能够这样做吗?”

もう少し返事:
“其实,每个女性的情绪蛮多。你要看这个女孩是这么控制她的情绪。以前我也不这么会控制我的情绪,所以我就常常去闹别人。现在呢,我更能够控制自己。”

その言葉はたぶん正しいと思う。僕は他の女性がもうちょっとわかりたいのです。る様、どうもありがとうございます!君と一緒にたくさん遊んで、話して、食べた、めっちゃめっちゃ楽しかったよ!またね。。



Wednesday, 13 May 2015

the Sage of Tahara

Once upon a time,

He woke up and decided to travel somewhere far away, somewhere beyond the grasps and clutches of the daily hustle bustles of life.

Thus he packed his bag, and set to travel by himself. He went down southern to Tsuruhashi. In the midst of the bustling train station, he took another few hours of train ride to the west, until he ended up in Toba, where the train could no longer take him no more. He has reached the seaside, the terminus, the part of Mie Prefecture that embraces the great Pacific Ocean. It was a misty, foggy day, but he ran, and ran. He kept on by himself, with some loneliness, sadness in him. He saw families laughing, birds crowing. The sea breeze was blowing against his chest, as if teasing him.

Unsatisfied with the vastly different scenery, he insisted on fleeing further from Toba. He scurried past whatever the port town had to offer him, and reached the terminal just in time: His ferry was about to depart.

He didn't care, because he knew that there was somewhere he needed to go. However, what he was looking for he himself was not sure of. But to go, he must, thus he bought his tickets and quietly boarded the vessel. He chose to sit on the exposed part of the deck, and in the midst of the mist, shivers, and the howling wind, his eyes flashed with joy whilst seeing the mesmerizing islands and oceans coming to life. "Even for just a little, let me forget everything, break free from everything. For the scariest dragons to flee from are inside our minds rather than the ones you see in the mountains.."

All the sudden, an announcement from the speakers woke him up from his daydream: "伊良湖にようこそ!"

He glanced at his watch; an hour has passed by. The ship has turned into a standstill, and crowds of people began streaming out of the vessel. It was probably around four in the afternoon, and he had just arrived in Irago peninsula, the easternmost tip of Aichi Prefecture. It was still raining softly then, but he stepped out and walked toward the road that led to the inland. He looked left and right, and he saw a painting. He was facing the vast Pacific Ocean, while behind him are trees, hills, and forests stacked one after another. Yellow magnolia flowers were shyly blossoming, seagulls were chirping and diving after one another. The quietness of the seaside village and its salty fragrance softly embraced him. He silently wondered, if, it could get any closer to paradise..?

He threaded through the meandering, hazy road. One or two cars occasionally passed by, but it was quiet otherwise. Finally, he found the pre-arranged lodging he had in mind. The BnB was not large, neither did it stand out from the rest, but it had a speck of immaculate quality that made it feel special. It didn't take him long to settle into this Japanese-style accommodation, and he savored the hot bath with grace.

The streets of Irago were unlit, so when night fell he went out and looked above. The sky was rugged with stars. Guess what was the brightest star among them all?

He expected his journey to be a quiet one; he denied himself of any outside contact, and he wished solitude. Alas, some paths are not meant to be walked solo. He became friends with three other adventurers, each hailing from different countries and holding different purposes in mind. With these three new friends he spoke with zeal, shared his bread, sang at the sundown, and raced towards sunrise. He envied the freedom these lone wolves possess, for his three friends have forsaken everything in order to see the world. They may have little money or stability, but they have the biggest wings and the smallest worries.

There exists a bigger municipality which is connected by land to Irago, named Tahara. He thus decided to venture around it. Oddly enough, it was not Tahara that he sought, it was the Sage of Tahara. "The Goddess of Irago would probably suit her better", he thought, after witnessing her enchanting smile.

It is amusing and yet very spectacular how life always brings you what you need when you really need it the most, even when sometimes you are not quite sure what you are seeking for. As long as you are willing to make that leap of faith, you shall be led to the light.

Ah yes, that smile. Only once, or twice, in his lifetime has he seen such a saintly smile. When she talked, it felt as if she was blessing him. Through her sweet melodies and voice, wisdom came down pouring on him. He felt swept away by a current, trying his best to capture the jewels that came raining on him. Although it was almost exhausting, after each encounter he felt healed and stronger; he felt that his life was rejuvenated. And, the Sage of Tahara was still very young too.. He could not help but marvel at her wisdom, obtained and refined at such an early age.

The sage told him that she graduated a few years ago, and in the end preferred Japan over America or Britain. She spoke a wonderful English, caramelized with a sweet Japanese accent. She was also fascinated by his command of Chinese, and asked him to correct her pronunciation of "空". As it turns out, "空" was her favorite word.

"If you dislike something in somebody, you are essentially disliking yourself. What you saw was the projection of yourself into the person, だよ。If you think about it, there are some people who still like the person no matter how bad he or she is. Thus, you must learn to forgive yourself through forgiving other people too, ねえ", said the sage to him.

"Why are you stressed? You must be attached to the results, ねえ。Live in the now. Worrying about the future is pointless because your future is determined exactly right now, by the bits of seconds that add up right now. How can you dream of a happy future if you can't be happy right now?" The sage further elaborated.

He felt that he found what he was looking for. It was... love. No, not romantic love, but a real lesson on love. After understanding that, he no longer felt lonely, he no longer felt weak. He then knew how to love himself better. He had rested his fatigued spirit, had satisfied his sense of adventure, and finally regained the courage to continue. He was ready to move on.

At the time of parting, the sage said to him: "Remember not my face, remember not this place, remember not my words, but remember the truth that lies within them. Remember who we really are," she smiled sweetly and added: "But you are always welcome to come back. You know where to find me."

He bowed deeply to her, expressed his utmost gratitude, and left.

And there were none.

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Tahara (田原) in Japanese means the origin, or the source, of rice fields. May we always remember to stay connected with our (re)source, remember our origin, of who we actually really are.

あやちゃん、とてもとてもありがとうございました。迷惑をかけて、本当にすみませんでした。お疲れさまでした!また後でお会いましょう、ねえ。。多分、ある日。。かも知らない。。

Sunday, 26 April 2015

Animal

It's not easy to describe this feeling; but let me try nonetheless.

If plants can sit quietly and be productive, staying in the same spot and bearing the fruits of their labor everyday, then I am an animal. I feel at ease when I am in motion.

Perhaps I am running away, from something. Perhaps there is, that I cannot bear to face. Perhaps I lack of, courage.

But one cannot run away forever. One ought to neither look down, nor look behind. One must face up, and thrust forward, and there is no other way can one lead his life.

Notwithstanding, a person can feel that he is alone and by himself. He feels that no one understands him, or tries. He feels fear enveloping him, and he feels helpless as he is in the verge of collapsing into darkness.

What does a person ought to do, once he is faced with that?

For a person's life does not belong to himself. It belongs to the people around him, and he owes his life to his mortal enemies as much as he owes it to his best friends. There is only one real duty, that is to live, to see through the scary parts of the fairy tale and eventually discover that dragons can be slain.

If such a man was to come to me, I at least have an answer. Go to a Japanese train station. No, don't jump off the tracks, that won't solve anything. Take the fastest train, something faster than the special limited express, if possible. Go to the first car where the conductor maneuvers the vehicle like a wizard bringing his golem to life. Do it early in the morning, let the sun bash your head and knock into you some life. Watch the Japanese towns, trees, and landscapes unzip before your eyes. It doesn't matter whether you are standing by yourself or there is a crowd of commuters behind you. Keep looking straight up, feel your body accelerating with the train. Zoom past your worries, troubles, and loneliness. Until the next stop, they cease to exist.

And sometimes that small pause is all we need.

A small hope.

Perhaps through that tiny seep, one can realize that those fears, worries, loneliness, are but illusions one create and stubbornly cling onto. That's why velocity might just be able to shake them off.

Isn't it a joy to be living?

Thursday, 2 April 2015

A Date with Me

I'm probably going through a rebellious phase.

I don't even know where to begin describing this feeling; it probably has to do with the volatile emotions and feelings I've been pressurized by lately. As I watched my internal world getting torn asunder, I laid down and surrendered. I felt so much pain throbbing in my heart, that I thought I was falling into darkness.

Fortunately, I received a few words of wisdom. These words told me to take it easy, to relax, to feel the feeling. Subsequently, a cool, calm feeling enveloped me. When I woke up this morning, I wasn't quite sure what happened, but I felt very relaxed. Instead of finishing whatever work I had, I opened my laptop and savored wonderful music. I felt fearless, I feared of losing nobody, I started desiring my own company. My intuition was speaking louder than ever, and it felt so good. I must be doing something right.

I knew that today is the only sunny day in Osaka this week, and this is the week when sakura flowers (cherry blossoms) bloom. I felt the urge of taking part in ohanami (sakura-viewing), but I have classes until 4pm on Thursdays. It took quite a while, but I managed to convince myself to skip my afternoon classes. I know that skipping classes amounts to a certain disrespect to the teachers, but I had this feeling that I could not miss this no matter what. It was a lesson more important than the ones I learn in class. I could've asked for my friends to tag along, as the me before would've done. But not this time. I also had another feeling that it has to be done by myself, me alone, and I liked that feeling. I wanted to escape from a friend. Nothing wrong with her, but these past few days I felt like staying away from her. I felt a strange repulsion, a different energy, for one reason or another.

Thus I met one of my afternoon teachers and sent a text to the other. I left school at 1230, had an amazing lunch at my favorite place near my apartment, and then bought snacks for the hanami. I was pretty gracious: I got myself green tea, milk coffee, chocolate moist cake, pea chips, and green tea biscuits. One train ride and one monorail ride later I arrived in heaven on earth. In between tall buildings and houses there was a fenced patch of green, with tall trees handsomely encircling it. White-pinkish sakura flowers were in their full bloom; not unlike a group of elegant ladies laughing merrily. People were sprawling about like ants, kids were playing on the fields and adults either seated and talking or lying down and relaxing. I was taking so many pictures that I had to stop myself.

Anyone with a decent imagination would create her own safe haven, a beautiful place to retreat into where there's nowhere else to go. In the mind of the middle school me, my safe haven was a bustling night street, with dim lights and rows and rows of blooming sakura trees to the right and the left of the streets. There are many Japanese-style festival stalls that sells food and offers opportunities to have fun, and I imagined walking down that street seeing people I know and love, stopping every so often to talk to them; all while enjoying the falling petals of sakura and the soft evening wind.

I was genuinely startled to see my tiny sanctuary in real life, with my own eyes. Except, of course, it wasn't in the evening and I knew and talked to nobody on that street. But yet, I was very grateful. To close your eyes and imagine your own little sanctuary, and to open your eyes and finding yourself there, it's quite a feeling to describe.

And yes, I was by myself, but I was far from lonely. I was enjoying my independence, my solitude. It felt good to be able to have the highest degree of freedom, to be able to decide where to go next or how long to stay at that place for, without worrying how your company might think or feel. I collected sakura flowers to be pressed at one moment, and started munching the green tea biscuits at another. I meandered through a street market, got myself lost, found my way back again. I sat in an empty stadium and sipped my green tea while watching the flowers and the kids who are playing badminton down below. And yes, it was such a joy.

I left the big park, thinking that there was another small park to be discovered beyond the eastern gates. I was wrong; there was only a deserted concrete space with pockets of sakura trees. I am now very glad that I made the mistake. I found an empty space (there were none inside the very crowded park) and lied down next to a sakura tree. I took deep breaths, meditated for a bit, talked to myself, and stared at the pinkish blossoms. I felt the soft and moist sensation of the grass below, gently pressing themselves against my skin. I then sat up, finished my snacks, and lied down again. I contemplated the beauty right before my eyes, and for that moment, I ceased to worry about what has happened and what was going to happen. I felt a joyous, glistening energy through my body.

I left when I wanted to leave; when it finally got cold enough. It was a day of freedom well-spent, and probably much deserved and needed. I'm so glad that I'm by myself, I had nobody to entertain or to take care but by myself. I could get myself dirty and stare at the flowers silly without a care. I could talk to myself, I could hum out loud, without worrying what my company might think about me.

Dear Universe, thank you for today. Thank you for the beauty, for the peace of mind, for the solitude. Thank you for reconnecting me with nature. Thank you for giving me even more opportunities to be grateful. Thank you for reminding me that life is worth living. Thank you for giving me the courage to step out alone, by myself, to explore. Thank you.
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On a side note, the weather is warm enough such that I am opening my windows in the hopes of getting my room cooler. Thank goodness(:

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And honestly, despite the fact that it was so fun to be with myself, a part of me wished that I was holding the hands of the girl I was dating in Kyoto (see the previous post) as I walked down the path of sakuras. Maybe, someday, someday.