Of Contradictions

What would you do if you have some questions that no one can seem to answer satisfactorily?

I believe that last time we had a lot of those. Slowly, little by little, we learn to ignore the questioning mind, to stop asking why, and force ourselves to accept things at face value. We settle for less. These questions we have asked will slowly be buried by grains of time, emotions, and memories.

Is ignorance truly bliss? Is it best to keep our inquisitive ego dull? What should we question, what shouldn't? When should we? Where do we stand? Where should we stand? I am starting to believe that, among everything else, we live in a world of contradictions. At times, we should learn to have faith, to simply sit down and accept things the way they are. At other times, we need to explore, dig deeper, question, instigate, provoke, and challenge the status quo.

We need wisdom to tell the difference, so you say, but is wisdom truly something we gain from experience? Memory is unreliable, it contains our altered version of the past, and distorting it is easier than using Photoshop to alter a picture. So our reflections, our aspirations, and our so called 'wisdom' are naught.

And yet, the wisdom should not lie in the brains, it should lie in the heart. You feel the wisdom, you don't think about it. How do you learn to feel? It is akin to asking a fish how it learned to swim, or asking a human how he learned to breathe. Trial and error? How do you differentiate between emotions and feelings? Where does the wisdom to tell the difference came from? Are you thinking, are you talking to yourself, or is there something inside you that is manipulating you?

Is emptiness desirable? Let go, or so they say. But inside emptiness, there is naught. What should we truly do? What is the meaning of life? If you persistently ask questions after questions, you will realize that these questions either require a degree of faith or form an infinite cycle of questions. Again, the trick here is to feel the answer. To have the wisdom and the courage to grasp the answer through intuition, and move on despite not fully understanding it. I believe that one can feel their way through, and although initially it may feel like a blind man feeling his way through a darkened corridor, everything will soon brighten up.

Only then can one see the true meaning of life.

-TrulyIndonesia'sFinest.

PS: sorry for rambling :P you get the idea.