Gifts

Hi readers, how is it going?

Hahaha. This week has been on the rougher spectrum, for multiple reasons. But yet, if one lives with the premise that the condition of life is optimal, then one must accept that everything in one's life happens for that said person.

I'd like to think that after attending Eckhart Tolle's talk, and listening to other big ideas, including creation, feelings as an indicator, and avoiding living in a me-centered universe, I'd be unfuckwithable. What does being unfuckwithable mean? Popularized by Vishen Lakhiani, being unfuckwithable means having persistent inner peace and self-love regardless of one's external circumstances. Alas, reaching that state takes some practice.

Not taking one's life seriously takes some practice. Forgiving others and letting go takes practice. Not fully believing and identifying with one's thoughts takes practice.

And well, put it that way, this week has given me the opportunity of such practice. Work was busy this week - I put in close to 70 hours I think by today. On top of that, I got yelled at, and I didn't get the non-billable I wanted. And I took everything personally.

But hey, armed with a new mental model and a greater understanding, I began to take it easy. What if this all happens for me? What if there are better things out there that now is coming to my life, because all these happened? What if these are the things I really needed? And of course - I take responsibility too. I ended the blame game such that I don't blame anyone, including myself, but I take responsibility!

Therefore, thank you, Universe, for giving me a challenging week. I am grateful, because this was a great opportunity showing the fruits of my training. I have become more patient, more optimistic, and more forgiving. And I will continue toward that perfection, until I can operate at the full state of allowing and surrender, and have inner peace and fun wherever I go and whatever I do. That I wake up, one day, feeling full and complete, fully accepting and loving myself, finally realizing and continuously feeling enough.

Thank you. I am getting there.