Luceeee

Hey readers - what's up!

Been a hectic week. hahaha. Which is good, because that meant that I'm super productive. (y)

Anyways, here I am in UES, DavidsTea Shop, calmly sipping a cup of ice cream matcha tea. It's really freaking good. It's so good that I just asked for a refill of hot water from the cute lady assisting me with the tea - and I had an amazing conversation with her too about Overwatch. It's funny, but I'll look into it. She told me she cosplays too. And this is a white girl I'm talking about. hahaha.

How did I end up in this situation? I guess - good karma? Or certain thought vibrations? Not quite sure. But yes, I had an amazing, actually, a perfect, weekend. And I am very grateful for it.

Sometime during the week a thought, or two, or three bubbled into the surface of my mind. A thought that was charged by such negative emotions, a thought that I immediately believed in and associated with. This was along the lines of: "I am feeling very lonely, I need company. I'm tired of going home to an empty home, to have nobody to spend time with during the weekends, to have nobody to share my life with. If this trend continues, then this weekend I will simply be alone and lonely."

Notice how it's just a thought. :) but at that moment, I let myself into its grips. I let it run the show, I let it define me as a problem that needed solution. But fortunately, I am a bit well-trained (and moreso after attending the Eckhart Tolle at the beautiful Beacon Theatre talk last night!) and immediately realized that I need to dissociate from such a thought and choose better-feeling thoughts whenever they are available for me! Because such a feeling is indicative on whatever is coming to my life, and even if it wasn't the case why would one actively seek to feel terrible if, through willpower and intent, one can feel astonishingly better?

I'm not exactly sure if I was able to willfully choose a better-feeling thought or if I simply surrendered and killed the thought because a better-feeling one wasn't available, but the few days moved on and I started feeling better. I was working hard during the weekdays, and surrendered to the fact that I'll probably spend my weekend alone, and I was fine and ready and prepared for it. I'm pretty awesome, anyways, so what's not to love about spending time with myself? Hehehe.

Come Friday afternoon (somehow that day I didn't decide to lock my phone inside my drawer), I received a text from Lucy, a wonderful friend from Amherst, letting me know that she's going on an impromptu trip to New York and asking me if I could host her over the weekend. Lucy is such a sweetheart and such a delight to be around with, so obviously it's a yes for me. We had multiple quality conversations, toured the streets and riversides of New York, awesome meals and ice cream and boba, and watched the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and tidbits of Alan Watt's talks together.

I am truly grateful for Lucy, as she's special in a lot of ways. I first met her when Audrey invited her over to our lunch at Oriental Flavors, and we instantly connected. Lucy is really beautiful, charming, and kind. She always tries to engage with you, and gives her best in everything. She's fun-loving yet prudent, and is truly truly thoughtful (she actually got me a pack of matcha green tea which tastes amazing and wrote me a thank-you note for hosting me! I've hosted a bunch of friends but she's the first to show this kind of appreciation!) She's truly fun to tease and make fun of, and most importantly, she is not judgmental and not demanding. I am grateful for her company this weekend, and I definitely would love more of her company in the future. Hehehe.

Anyways, I ramble. What brought me to this wonderful tea shop in this charming neighbourhood? Yes, Lucy. She left behind her glasses in my apartment, and therefore I took it to Rachael, who lives around here, and who is going back to Amherst as well. I am chuffed to bits as I got to see and say hi to Rachael for a bit too, before exploring the area and savoring such a wonderful cup of tea. As a bonus, a really charming couple was sitting in my view, and they were having such a great time talking, caressing, and making out. I am really happy for them, and I am grateful for this good omen! I am grateful for all the romances I get to witness and experience! Ahem.

I hope your weekend is amazing too :)