Hi insecurity,
Thank you for coming through me. I guess this theme has happened so many times before- I don't know what I want to do with my life, and I am scared that with where I am right now and what I can do right now I can never find something suitable.
A part of me believes that I am not good enough, that I am not capable enough, and I won't ever develop the talent/skillsets necessary. That I won't even find my passion. Is this because I don't know myself very well?
When I was looking for my first job, I said to myself, whatever it is would work as long as I get to stay in America. And then I'll figure it out from there. I now have a job lined up in a startup in Jakarta, but a part of me is scared that it won't work out or it won't lead to a development skillset or a job that I truly love and want to spend the rest of my life doing.
Yes, I want to figure that out. I want to figure out what I would LOVE to spend the rest of my life doing. I want to know what I want, and I want to know how I would enjoy spending the rest of my time here in the third rock away from the sun. This feeling grips me, because insofar in my life I have never really truly known. What can I do to truly know? How can I truly understand?
Something that has been offered to me is to focus on the feeling. What does it feel like to have true clarity and to actually be working in something that I would want to do for the rest of my life? It would range from the feeling of calm, to the feeling of being madly in love and passionate. I would wake up feeling psyched going to work, and while at work, time would fly so fast because there's a plethora of amazing and interesting things to do. I would go home feeling satisfied, knowing that I have done the best I could on that day, and resting easy as I look forward to the tomorrow. I would be able to talk about my work with pride, because I know that it is inherently interesting and it adds value to the lives around me. I would be able to grow my skillsets and knowledge, and travel as I work to see the world. I am able to make connections with people, and understand myself better through what I am doing. And of course, whatever I touch becomes gold- which increases the gold in the bank. And oh, having a great boss and a wonderful mentor/sponsor would be amazing too.
Wouldn't it be a really nice way to live? Doesn't it feel great to live this way?
Sunday, 5 January 2020
Tuesday, 10 December 2019
Half Moon Bay
Hello folks- I am writing this as I am enjoying myself in the Ritz Carlton of Half Moon Bay, courtesy of Cornerstone Research. No, we do not travel at all, but after hitting two and a half years at this company, we are rewarded with a retreat trip that connects the Senior Analysts and Research Associates of Cornerstone Research from the seven offices throughout the US (+1 London). This is very nice as I finally meet the other SAs/RAs who I have worked with remotely, really nice to finally put a face to their names. Kevin and I also ran at the back roads of the hotel, and it really reminded us of Amherst (except for the beach).
I am grateful that the long, winding road of my life took me to this path, to where I am right now. And haha, the future still looks as uncertain and as hard as I was when I was applying for college, or applying for my first-ever internship, or my first-ever full-time job, but I do get a bit wiser. As I am in the process of figuring exactly what my next steps are, I couldn't help but be excited about what's ahead, but at the same time very nervous and uncertain as well. I would like to practice this deep abiding trust, deep and strong surrender for what's to come.
Apparently the heart opens itself to things and that is how the life force flows through you, and everytime you contract, everytime you deny, everytime you pull yourself away, the life force flows less and lesser, and eventually deprives you of yourself (the true you). And therefore I shall keep my heart open, in half moon bay.
Come to me, this deep sense of calm and knowing. Because that is all I will ever have, and all I will ever be.
I am grateful that the long, winding road of my life took me to this path, to where I am right now. And haha, the future still looks as uncertain and as hard as I was when I was applying for college, or applying for my first-ever internship, or my first-ever full-time job, but I do get a bit wiser. As I am in the process of figuring exactly what my next steps are, I couldn't help but be excited about what's ahead, but at the same time very nervous and uncertain as well. I would like to practice this deep abiding trust, deep and strong surrender for what's to come.
Apparently the heart opens itself to things and that is how the life force flows through you, and everytime you contract, everytime you deny, everytime you pull yourself away, the life force flows less and lesser, and eventually deprives you of yourself (the true you). And therefore I shall keep my heart open, in half moon bay.
Come to me, this deep sense of calm and knowing. Because that is all I will ever have, and all I will ever be.
Saturday, 23 November 2019
YouTube
Hi friends,
These days I have been watching a lot of YouTube (think Stephen Colbert, Trevor Noah, The Office, etc..) and I came to a realization.
You see, there are two ways in which I watch YouTube - I would either watch it from my laptop's Chrome browser, or my iPad's DuckDuckGo browser. It's just a matter of which one's more physically accessible for me (e.g. iPad's nicer when I watch as I lay on my bed, slacking off.. hehe).
Now, I don't know if you are familiar with DuckDuckGo, but it is a cookie-free privacy-oriented browser, compared to Google Chrome which keeps track of which videos I have searched for. And indeed, at one point while using the iPad I lamented to myself that the video recommendations aren't as good as when I use my laptop - it would be pretty much random. The recommendations through my laptop will be on-point: the next episode of Stephen Colbert, another clip of The Office I haven't seen, or another new minisode from my favorite game-streamer, DangerouslyFunny.
Well, of course, you say. Every single search that I offer on YouTube through Chrome informs the great algorithm of YouTube of what my preferences are, and as the system tries to keep me engaged, it offers me similar videos, and most importantly, videos that it thinks I would be most likely to watch and enjoy. And as I click on these recommended videos, the algorithm gets more and more reinforced and finds more and more videos to my liking.
Isn't this how our minds work, as well? It offers thoughts to us much like YouTube offers videos to us. Except that this is 24/7 without a pause button (well, unless you get into the bliss field when you meditate, get into a coma, or a blackout sleep). But I've recently discovered that by being circumspect about what I write in the search bar of my mind, I increasingly more and more enjoy the resulting thought-videos that are offered to me. My mind learns of my preferences, and gives me more of the same. And then someone said that your thoughts become things, that your inner world determine your outer world, that what you feel and vibrate is what you attract. And friends, the science behind that is known as the Reticular Activating System (RAS).
I hope you are loving what your channel is playing for you.
These days I have been watching a lot of YouTube (think Stephen Colbert, Trevor Noah, The Office, etc..) and I came to a realization.
You see, there are two ways in which I watch YouTube - I would either watch it from my laptop's Chrome browser, or my iPad's DuckDuckGo browser. It's just a matter of which one's more physically accessible for me (e.g. iPad's nicer when I watch as I lay on my bed, slacking off.. hehe).
Now, I don't know if you are familiar with DuckDuckGo, but it is a cookie-free privacy-oriented browser, compared to Google Chrome which keeps track of which videos I have searched for. And indeed, at one point while using the iPad I lamented to myself that the video recommendations aren't as good as when I use my laptop - it would be pretty much random. The recommendations through my laptop will be on-point: the next episode of Stephen Colbert, another clip of The Office I haven't seen, or another new minisode from my favorite game-streamer, DangerouslyFunny.
Well, of course, you say. Every single search that I offer on YouTube through Chrome informs the great algorithm of YouTube of what my preferences are, and as the system tries to keep me engaged, it offers me similar videos, and most importantly, videos that it thinks I would be most likely to watch and enjoy. And as I click on these recommended videos, the algorithm gets more and more reinforced and finds more and more videos to my liking.
Isn't this how our minds work, as well? It offers thoughts to us much like YouTube offers videos to us. Except that this is 24/7 without a pause button (well, unless you get into the bliss field when you meditate, get into a coma, or a blackout sleep). But I've recently discovered that by being circumspect about what I write in the search bar of my mind, I increasingly more and more enjoy the resulting thought-videos that are offered to me. My mind learns of my preferences, and gives me more of the same. And then someone said that your thoughts become things, that your inner world determine your outer world, that what you feel and vibrate is what you attract. And friends, the science behind that is known as the Reticular Activating System (RAS).
I hope you are loving what your channel is playing for you.
Saturday, 9 November 2019
som nee ya
Hello hello,
It has been a while. I have been *neglecting* this part of my life, where I think and reflect and ponder upon my life. But now I am back at it as I am sitting in a cafe called Broken Coconut in Bleeker Street, watching a man on a Rumble jacket stringing along his dog while shaking his ass to some classy music.
This is really night and day from my experience in Jakarta (yes, I just got back from a longish vacation back home and Bali, granting myself the necessary time to catch up with my family). As usual, time back home was typically slower (though not necessarily more or less stressful or eventful) hence it offered me a space to reflect and internalize new thoughts and discarding or reintegrating old systems and beliefs.
Alright, instead of writing stories about back home, please indulge me as I try to clarify - largely for my own benefit - the ideas/concepts/mental models that I am experimenting with.
First, according to Emily Fletcher (my current meditation guru), per the Vedas there are always three circles - circles of creation, maintenance, and destruction. If my memory serves me right, this flows with the Hindu gods of Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva. The essence of the teaching is as follows: the Universe is expanding, and therefore it supports the endeavor of creation. Maintenance is squarely followed by destruction, and therefore the universe doesn't like it when we just stay stagnating. Now, she also offered that instead of judging something as positive or negative, she invites us to see if that thing (or that aspect of our lives) is in the phase of creation, maintenance, or destruction. All of us have multiple facets to our lives and it's definitely alright for an aspect, say, this blog (hehehe) be on the destruction (or neglect) phase as I focus on creating on the other aspects of my life, be it my physical health (through WildFit!) or my spirituality (through Ziva!).
This really squares nicely into the next idea- what was coined a Barbell method by Nasim Nicholas Taleb in his book Antifragile. Essentially, having two extremes as a way to achieve a balance is a much better way to go than having everything in middling or in moderation. Eric Edmeades from WildFit also said that everything in moderation includes your health- thus the Barbell method to health would probably be intermittent fasting (periods of noneating followed by overeating), and the idea that having five glasses of wine in one day is healthier than having one glass of wine everyday for five days (not that I encourage binge drinking, but hey it's a free country). So now, in line with my spiritual advisor's encouragement (Mbak Mary Susaktiani), I intend to apply the barbell concept to my other areas of life as well, especially in terms of socializing, trying something new, and moving out of my comfort zone. If all organics are antifragile, i.e. benefits from randomness, shocks, and variability, surely something new every so often would rejuvenate and strengthen my being. Perhaps it shall give me the spice of life that I am after.
Last is the idea that we are all one, we are extensions of the Universe in which we are acting as its tool in which we experience and enjoy life. This also means that we are not at the driver seat of our buses, but at the same time there is the Universe who focuses squarely and positively at you and holds you onto its loving attention (per Abraham Hicks) and who has got your back and gives you what you need and maybe not quite what you want (per Srikumar Rao). What follows is then loosely gripped but clear desires, surrender, using feeling, clarity, and intuition as a guide, and then treating others as how you would want to treat yourself- all the while rejoicing, growing, creating, and having tons of fun because the only time we have is now, from the beginning of time through the eternity. Something that I am grappling with personally is therefore that as people have their stories (and co-create in them) and allotted fortunes (rejeki), they would have allotted emotions and feelings. I have been taught that the way to do anything and everything is to first accept it, acknowledge it, and surrender to it. After we follow them to their natural course and conclusion, as we become clearer and clearer on what we want, we are then free to manifest change. We have the power to make the Universe even more perfect, but before doing so we must recognize that it has already been perfect and always will be.
And now I understand- I resolve to take it easy and to enjoy and to take risks and be adventurous, to follow my gut, to be open to all kinds of experiences, to be soft-spoken and gracious and grateful but to have a firm will and a solid understanding that everything has been, is, and will be alright (this is bliss, vs happiness) and to have very clear and strong desires and intentions and responsibility, integrity, and self-respect but to have them loosely held.
And thus, I march forward.
It has been a while. I have been *neglecting* this part of my life, where I think and reflect and ponder upon my life. But now I am back at it as I am sitting in a cafe called Broken Coconut in Bleeker Street, watching a man on a Rumble jacket stringing along his dog while shaking his ass to some classy music.
This is really night and day from my experience in Jakarta (yes, I just got back from a longish vacation back home and Bali, granting myself the necessary time to catch up with my family). As usual, time back home was typically slower (though not necessarily more or less stressful or eventful) hence it offered me a space to reflect and internalize new thoughts and discarding or reintegrating old systems and beliefs.
Alright, instead of writing stories about back home, please indulge me as I try to clarify - largely for my own benefit - the ideas/concepts/mental models that I am experimenting with.
First, according to Emily Fletcher (my current meditation guru), per the Vedas there are always three circles - circles of creation, maintenance, and destruction. If my memory serves me right, this flows with the Hindu gods of Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva. The essence of the teaching is as follows: the Universe is expanding, and therefore it supports the endeavor of creation. Maintenance is squarely followed by destruction, and therefore the universe doesn't like it when we just stay stagnating. Now, she also offered that instead of judging something as positive or negative, she invites us to see if that thing (or that aspect of our lives) is in the phase of creation, maintenance, or destruction. All of us have multiple facets to our lives and it's definitely alright for an aspect, say, this blog (hehehe) be on the destruction (or neglect) phase as I focus on creating on the other aspects of my life, be it my physical health (through WildFit!) or my spirituality (through Ziva!).
This really squares nicely into the next idea- what was coined a Barbell method by Nasim Nicholas Taleb in his book Antifragile. Essentially, having two extremes as a way to achieve a balance is a much better way to go than having everything in middling or in moderation. Eric Edmeades from WildFit also said that everything in moderation includes your health- thus the Barbell method to health would probably be intermittent fasting (periods of noneating followed by overeating), and the idea that having five glasses of wine in one day is healthier than having one glass of wine everyday for five days (not that I encourage binge drinking, but hey it's a free country). So now, in line with my spiritual advisor's encouragement (Mbak Mary Susaktiani), I intend to apply the barbell concept to my other areas of life as well, especially in terms of socializing, trying something new, and moving out of my comfort zone. If all organics are antifragile, i.e. benefits from randomness, shocks, and variability, surely something new every so often would rejuvenate and strengthen my being. Perhaps it shall give me the spice of life that I am after.
Last is the idea that we are all one, we are extensions of the Universe in which we are acting as its tool in which we experience and enjoy life. This also means that we are not at the driver seat of our buses, but at the same time there is the Universe who focuses squarely and positively at you and holds you onto its loving attention (per Abraham Hicks) and who has got your back and gives you what you need and maybe not quite what you want (per Srikumar Rao). What follows is then loosely gripped but clear desires, surrender, using feeling, clarity, and intuition as a guide, and then treating others as how you would want to treat yourself- all the while rejoicing, growing, creating, and having tons of fun because the only time we have is now, from the beginning of time through the eternity. Something that I am grappling with personally is therefore that as people have their stories (and co-create in them) and allotted fortunes (rejeki), they would have allotted emotions and feelings. I have been taught that the way to do anything and everything is to first accept it, acknowledge it, and surrender to it. After we follow them to their natural course and conclusion, as we become clearer and clearer on what we want, we are then free to manifest change. We have the power to make the Universe even more perfect, but before doing so we must recognize that it has already been perfect and always will be.
And now I understand- I resolve to take it easy and to enjoy and to take risks and be adventurous, to follow my gut, to be open to all kinds of experiences, to be soft-spoken and gracious and grateful but to have a firm will and a solid understanding that everything has been, is, and will be alright (this is bliss, vs happiness) and to have very clear and strong desires and intentions and responsibility, integrity, and self-respect but to have them loosely held.
And thus, I march forward.
Tuesday, 16 July 2019
Yay
Hello readers,
How are you? Today's post is going to be a quick one, and it's not really even about me-
Four, five months ago, while New York was breezing cold, my friend Grace reached out to me, asking if Cornerstone Research was still hiring for analysts. She was helping out her friend, Marco, who have been job hunting as he wanted to stay in the States after he graduated. Unfortunately, at that point, CRNY has stopped recruiting for the season, since we've met our target of analysts for hire. But I decided that I could meet Marco anyways- I really enjoyed chatting with the friendly fellow when I met him at Brooklyn Cider House for Grace's birthday party.
With the intent to act as a resource for him, and to provide him with some encouragement (I've been through what he went through, too), I met him for dinner, just the two of us. We met in a sushi place that he recommended, which is apparently owned by an Indonesian. Anyways, we chatted, and we had a blast. I learned that he is very similar to me, very nice, smart, and driven- he has opportunities back home, but he wanted to stay. (I called it a "happy predicament", by the way). I shared my experience looking for internships and full-time jobs here, and told him about getting coffee chats and Scouted.io, which got me my first-ever internship that arguably led me to my job today (which I'm happily working for longer than two years now!!)
Needless to say, I picked the tab up (hey I was cheering him up, man), and simply told him to buy me a dinner later, when he eventually got a job offer. Wow it rhymes. I wasn't expecting anything- I know in my heart for sure that eventually he will land something, but I didn't actually expect him to remember what I said or this dinner at all.
A few months later, as we were savoring our Korean food at Take31, he said that the conversation he had was pivotal- he landed a job at Bridgewater, the world's largest hedge fund [really tempted to insert a footnote explaining as-of date, with AUM here hahaha], through Scouted.io. This was such great news, and thinking about it really warmed my heart, as he told me how his superday proceeded in such a Bridgewater-esque fashion. For one, he got scored on every single segment of his interviews, and it was transparently floated to him. Another curveball was that he received coding questions although he didn't apply for a technical role (yes, throughout the process his interviewers realized he might have an aptitude for coding, and shifted him to that role, asking him, among other things, how to construct an algorithm that prevents a linked-list from looping over itself). The biggest punchline (at least for me), however, was his interviewers asking for his feedback after the interview ended. Classic radical transparency.
He asked me for some advice- I told him what my old boss Alex Wang told me: Have a backbone. Your life is not your firm's, don't let them screw you over as they please. Otherwise, do a banger job and all will be fine.
Congrats Marco! I'm sure you'll do more than just fine there. And thank you, not only for picking up the tab, but for valuing my advice and sharing your journey with me. I pray for your success, and I can't wait to hear more about your career there!
How are you? Today's post is going to be a quick one, and it's not really even about me-
Four, five months ago, while New York was breezing cold, my friend Grace reached out to me, asking if Cornerstone Research was still hiring for analysts. She was helping out her friend, Marco, who have been job hunting as he wanted to stay in the States after he graduated. Unfortunately, at that point, CRNY has stopped recruiting for the season, since we've met our target of analysts for hire. But I decided that I could meet Marco anyways- I really enjoyed chatting with the friendly fellow when I met him at Brooklyn Cider House for Grace's birthday party.
With the intent to act as a resource for him, and to provide him with some encouragement (I've been through what he went through, too), I met him for dinner, just the two of us. We met in a sushi place that he recommended, which is apparently owned by an Indonesian. Anyways, we chatted, and we had a blast. I learned that he is very similar to me, very nice, smart, and driven- he has opportunities back home, but he wanted to stay. (I called it a "happy predicament", by the way). I shared my experience looking for internships and full-time jobs here, and told him about getting coffee chats and Scouted.io, which got me my first-ever internship that arguably led me to my job today (which I'm happily working for longer than two years now!!)
Needless to say, I picked the tab up (hey I was cheering him up, man), and simply told him to buy me a dinner later, when he eventually got a job offer. Wow it rhymes. I wasn't expecting anything- I know in my heart for sure that eventually he will land something, but I didn't actually expect him to remember what I said or this dinner at all.
A few months later, as we were savoring our Korean food at Take31, he said that the conversation he had was pivotal- he landed a job at Bridgewater, the world's largest hedge fund [really tempted to insert a footnote explaining as-of date, with AUM here hahaha], through Scouted.io. This was such great news, and thinking about it really warmed my heart, as he told me how his superday proceeded in such a Bridgewater-esque fashion. For one, he got scored on every single segment of his interviews, and it was transparently floated to him. Another curveball was that he received coding questions although he didn't apply for a technical role (yes, throughout the process his interviewers realized he might have an aptitude for coding, and shifted him to that role, asking him, among other things, how to construct an algorithm that prevents a linked-list from looping over itself). The biggest punchline (at least for me), however, was his interviewers asking for his feedback after the interview ended. Classic radical transparency.
He asked me for some advice- I told him what my old boss Alex Wang told me: Have a backbone. Your life is not your firm's, don't let them screw you over as they please. Otherwise, do a banger job and all will be fine.
Congrats Marco! I'm sure you'll do more than just fine there. And thank you, not only for picking up the tab, but for valuing my advice and sharing your journey with me. I pray for your success, and I can't wait to hear more about your career there!
Tuesday, 23 April 2019
Happy, Journey, Ending
"You cannot have a happy ending to an unhappy journey." -- Abraham Hicks
I think above is one of the most beautiful and powerful sentence I have been gifted with. It sounds so simple, but yet as I ponder upon it, it grows more and more complicated. I think there are three concepts worth discussing only from the above sentence: "happy", "journey", and "ending".
Let's start with the end. "Ending". Is there even an end? There is, of course, an ending to our physical body, but that is not the end end (if you know what I mean). For we are spiritual beings having a physical experience. What about end results? Achievements? Sure - they are even all the more temporary. Once you've reached the peak of the mountain you're climbing, your eye wanders to the neighboring taller mountain. What's next?
Next, let's get happiness out of the way. What is happiness? I'd like to think of happiness as a good combination of feeling good, a sense of well-being, and joy. Joy is, without a doubt, a feeling you obtain when you sense that you've grown - that the you today is somehow better, stronger, or more mature than the you yesterday. And well-being can be as simple as snuggling in a thick warm blanket in a cold snowy day. All this, though, depends on each individual's level of consciousness - what makes one person happy and joyful doesn't always apply to the next. And that is fine. What it means, though, is that we need to honor each person's individual definition of happiness and joy, as we recognize that we are each swimming in different streams of the river we call consciousness. So, yes, sure, we don't need anything to be happy. But until we arrive to the consciousness that we can truly live it as such, it's unwise to stop living and striving and start denying our materialistic self.
Finally, the journey. The journey is all that is. This is, folks, the essence of the human predicament. It is a happy predicament, as we are living in rather nice, peaceful, and advanced times. But that's it - it's our mandate to continue with the journey. Because the journey is all that is, and is all we have. When we reach a "destination", it will get replaced with another. And it goes on and on. It's no different than the game I'm playing, Stardew Valley, a video game where one becomes a farmer and manages one's own farm. My avatar wakes up everyday, does a bunch of farming, fishing, foraging, interacts with villagers, cooks, builds, mines, fights monsters, and then, without fail, goes to bed and wakes up the next day. Time is infinite, and while of course there is the natural impulse to squeeze the last juice out of the proverbial lemon, what is the point in that if there is no fun in doing so? There are room for "inefficiencies", or what I'd like to call, "serendipity". My avatar gets lost in the mines, forgets that the supermarket closes on Wednesdays, got his crop eaten by crows... All good, my fella. For why worry if time is infinite, and that you know for sure that you'll go to bed tonight, and the sun will rise again tomorrow?
So - enjoy! For now, my take is that I shall try to focus on feeling good first - and it takes some discipline, but I believe it will (and has) pay off. This is the time to give my best, in all aspects of my life - to do just enough, and then some. Because what better time to be than now? What is more important than your physical and mental health? And what tastes more delicious than a warm bowl of happiness and joy?
And I was told that it gets better - as the journey progresses, consciousness expands. It gets easier and more effortless and more pleasant.
Lastly - just to "contradict" what I said above (just a 4 minute watch!):
Enjoy :)
I think above is one of the most beautiful and powerful sentence I have been gifted with. It sounds so simple, but yet as I ponder upon it, it grows more and more complicated. I think there are three concepts worth discussing only from the above sentence: "happy", "journey", and "ending".
Let's start with the end. "Ending". Is there even an end? There is, of course, an ending to our physical body, but that is not the end end (if you know what I mean). For we are spiritual beings having a physical experience. What about end results? Achievements? Sure - they are even all the more temporary. Once you've reached the peak of the mountain you're climbing, your eye wanders to the neighboring taller mountain. What's next?
Next, let's get happiness out of the way. What is happiness? I'd like to think of happiness as a good combination of feeling good, a sense of well-being, and joy. Joy is, without a doubt, a feeling you obtain when you sense that you've grown - that the you today is somehow better, stronger, or more mature than the you yesterday. And well-being can be as simple as snuggling in a thick warm blanket in a cold snowy day. All this, though, depends on each individual's level of consciousness - what makes one person happy and joyful doesn't always apply to the next. And that is fine. What it means, though, is that we need to honor each person's individual definition of happiness and joy, as we recognize that we are each swimming in different streams of the river we call consciousness. So, yes, sure, we don't need anything to be happy. But until we arrive to the consciousness that we can truly live it as such, it's unwise to stop living and striving and start denying our materialistic self.
Finally, the journey. The journey is all that is. This is, folks, the essence of the human predicament. It is a happy predicament, as we are living in rather nice, peaceful, and advanced times. But that's it - it's our mandate to continue with the journey. Because the journey is all that is, and is all we have. When we reach a "destination", it will get replaced with another. And it goes on and on. It's no different than the game I'm playing, Stardew Valley, a video game where one becomes a farmer and manages one's own farm. My avatar wakes up everyday, does a bunch of farming, fishing, foraging, interacts with villagers, cooks, builds, mines, fights monsters, and then, without fail, goes to bed and wakes up the next day. Time is infinite, and while of course there is the natural impulse to squeeze the last juice out of the proverbial lemon, what is the point in that if there is no fun in doing so? There are room for "inefficiencies", or what I'd like to call, "serendipity". My avatar gets lost in the mines, forgets that the supermarket closes on Wednesdays, got his crop eaten by crows... All good, my fella. For why worry if time is infinite, and that you know for sure that you'll go to bed tonight, and the sun will rise again tomorrow?
So - enjoy! For now, my take is that I shall try to focus on feeling good first - and it takes some discipline, but I believe it will (and has) pay off. This is the time to give my best, in all aspects of my life - to do just enough, and then some. Because what better time to be than now? What is more important than your physical and mental health? And what tastes more delicious than a warm bowl of happiness and joy?
And I was told that it gets better - as the journey progresses, consciousness expands. It gets easier and more effortless and more pleasant.
Lastly - just to "contradict" what I said above (just a 4 minute watch!):
Enjoy :)
Sunday, 24 March 2019
Refinery
Where are you coming from? And what are your biggest priorities?
I guess you remember - that you are looking for something big. It is bigger, in the grandest scheme of things. So remember this when you are dealing with smaller things. That all of them are made out of the quantum soup, and is an essence of God. And therefore, think big, and let the small things take care of themselves. Because it's not any more expensive, or hard, to think big. And that when the right time comes, everything falls squarely in place. And that your life is essentially just a combination of "todays". So he said that as you set your intent on living your ideal day, every day, therefore it becomes an ideal week, month, year, decade, and eventually, life.
The other thing worth remembering is impermanence. Nothing survives the cruel fate, kings and knaves will turn to mere dust and shadows.
I know what I want.
I want to make it easier for humanity to choose happy, uplifting thoughts. Why do you want this? Because it would be nice if good thoughts are readily available for everyone. If everyone starts to have the tendency to enjoy and feel good about themselves. Because I have experienced this, and the quality of my life is purely a function of the thoughts I run in between my ears.
"But what we want you to understand that if you continue to look at what-is and speak of what-is, you will not find the improvement you desire. You may see a parade of changing faces and places, but your life will essentially show no improvement. If you want to effect substantial change in your life experience, you have to offer substantially different vibrations, which means you must think thoughts that feel different as you think them."
Essentially, every lack or negative feeling shows one what they actually want. Therefore, another way to pivot is to simply ask, upon encountering such resistance - what do I actually want? and how can I get it? or work towards it? and then focus on that. focus on the doing. Say - good, bad, who knows? and ask about what you need to do and then do it :)
And the power of fulfilling your commitments (integrity) and the power of good enough. :) the easiest promises to break are the ones you made to yourself.
So keep it. Keep it good enough.
I guess you remember - that you are looking for something big. It is bigger, in the grandest scheme of things. So remember this when you are dealing with smaller things. That all of them are made out of the quantum soup, and is an essence of God. And therefore, think big, and let the small things take care of themselves. Because it's not any more expensive, or hard, to think big. And that when the right time comes, everything falls squarely in place. And that your life is essentially just a combination of "todays". So he said that as you set your intent on living your ideal day, every day, therefore it becomes an ideal week, month, year, decade, and eventually, life.
The other thing worth remembering is impermanence. Nothing survives the cruel fate, kings and knaves will turn to mere dust and shadows.
I know what I want.
I want to make it easier for humanity to choose happy, uplifting thoughts. Why do you want this? Because it would be nice if good thoughts are readily available for everyone. If everyone starts to have the tendency to enjoy and feel good about themselves. Because I have experienced this, and the quality of my life is purely a function of the thoughts I run in between my ears.
"But what we want you to understand that if you continue to look at what-is and speak of what-is, you will not find the improvement you desire. You may see a parade of changing faces and places, but your life will essentially show no improvement. If you want to effect substantial change in your life experience, you have to offer substantially different vibrations, which means you must think thoughts that feel different as you think them."
Essentially, every lack or negative feeling shows one what they actually want. Therefore, another way to pivot is to simply ask, upon encountering such resistance - what do I actually want? and how can I get it? or work towards it? and then focus on that. focus on the doing. Say - good, bad, who knows? and ask about what you need to do and then do it :)
And the power of fulfilling your commitments (integrity) and the power of good enough. :) the easiest promises to break are the ones you made to yourself.
So keep it. Keep it good enough.
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